Eat a Banana!!!

Oh, hi! My name is Lena, and this is my ukulele... together we are ukulena! You can call me Miss Ukulena, and that's how you can find me on youtube.

I had the best time as a performing guest on www.thestream.tv 's 5 Minutes of Fame! It was so amazing. I really didn't know what kind of show I was going to be on, or what kind of environment I was going to be in... I did some research and the show seemed fun, but I had no idea they were creating a pilot for presenting to major networks! Ahhhh! I reall

y went with my gut instinct to wear that crazy vintage dress from the 50's. I'm so glad I did.

That was the best decision ever in my life because it all made sense in the end. Chiquita Banana inc. and I are going to be best friends! And I met Obama!!!

Haha just kidding, I only met the guy whomakes really good impressions of him... good enough for me, I was happy! I didn't know who this dude was until they were interviewing him on the show and sharing all his videos! Ask the other performers, I was all bright eyed and bushy tailed when I found out he was alphacat. Best moment ever!

Wow I am still in shock that I won! I even had a live stream of viewers asking if I was single, and telling me that I was crazy awesome! The other acts were amazing too, so winning by a landslide I'm not sure how that happened! I am so excited thanks to all my viewers! I will be working on a strawberry banana song... In the meantime check out some interesting facts about bananas!

Too Much, Too Much

It basically makes total sense that I have fallen for this trap... once again. I thought I would have at least caught it... but no, I am a victim to puppy love...

Oh wait, I am a girl. So it's normal I think. Especially when I start to see you at the end of the isle in a really nice tux and everybody is crying and I have no idea what happened to my brain because everything is spinning in circles around me and the flowers smell nice but the shade of purple is a little to light for me but everyone seems happy. Actually there's nobody watching. It's just you and me and that's it. Don't think a ceremony can even happen with an absence of everyone.

Whoa, whoa wait a second. I have only known you for a week. I finally snapped out of it...I don't know how but thank goodness I did. And...wait...you aren't mr perfect!? Oh my gosh and to my dismay I have been in total denial of reality for who knows how long! In fact you are far from perfect and all I can see is that you are clearly on another playing field. Me too, though, me too. I looked in the mirror today... Oh my gosh... not even going to say it. Stress leaves marks, let me tell ya.

I can't do this. Not again. I have done this before and I have pretty much thrown my life into someone's lap in a very short period of time leaving them no sense of need to put up any sort of fight. But there's always somebody you have to let go of before you pick me up... and until that happens I don't want to be sitting here having my heart strings pulled on like I'm some sort of marionette doll. Nope, not going to do it.

I've had this happen one too many times. I want to be able to avoid the heartbreak this time around. Thank God that romance comes in packages so I can look outside the box.

Play Pretend.

I just babysat today.

I love kids. And I can't wait to someday have a child of my own. That's something near and dear to my heart. But I am definitely going to live my life first.

On a side note....
It's not very hard to wonder why I have such a young personality. It might not make sense as to why I have an old soul, but I guess it evens out in the end.

I figured you gotta think like a kid to get the most organic substance of the mind, and at the same time it is through trial and error that this idea of maturity comes into play.

Some swear I am the youngest of 3 siblings. I have the most random personality and the baby face...but throw me in a crowd of mid 20's kids and I fit in just fine.

I'm still not aloud to have a glass of wine in a public for goodness sakes but I am allowed to do all this other random stuff. That's okay though.

I love kids, so I am okay with the limit to come in my next year of living. I have so much inspiration to collect from the little ones of this earth. They have the most vibrant spirits, and abundant fearlessness.

Whenever I want to develop some kind of story, I hang out with the kids!

Try it sometime. Get absorbed into a child's world of playing pretend, and you will see yourself become like a child, and ultimately grasp the pure creation of living at its best.

Kids are Genius. Listen to Them.

I love watching Disney Movies.

They teach you so many life lessons!!! No, seriously! But it's not a bad thing, I promise you. As much as some parents out there want to guard their childrens' hearts from all the evil in the world by preventing them from watching these films, promise me... there is already too much your children already know just by living in this world.

This cute little adorable fish above has an addiction... and has sharing issues. MINE MINE MINE!!! Oh wait that is the line of these dudes...

What will we do?

Fact: Nemo could do exactly what he wanted to do.

Fact: Dad was super protective and extremely fearful of everything in the sea.

Fact: You gotta let your kid swim, and learn some lessons on their own, or else they are just gonna get pissed and run away.

If anything, pay attention to your kids when they are doing something out of the ordinary. When you find that unordinary seed in your child, nourish it, feed it, and exercise it. Every time you say no, they are just going to tag that sticky NO(te) to their self reminder board of dashed dreams and desires.

True Story:

I met a 10 year old kid on set. We talked about all sorts of things, and I asked him what he wanted to be when he grew up. Cutest kid ever! He shyly replied without hesitation,

"I want to be an inventor."

His sister mentioned a flying chair concept he came up with and he was quick to explain the entire thing. Genius kid.

My face probably lit up because I know my heart was really excited about all of this, asking

"Do you write all your ideas down?"

"Oh, all the time," he smiled. That sweet smile on his face soon disappeared to leave a saddened look in his eyes...something I could see into his soul about, as he continued,

"Because when you grow up you forget what it's like to have an imagination."

As I'm sure your's is right now, my heart sunk to the bottom of my soul like the anchor of a butt... I mean boat.

So next time you are doing something random, and you kid says something like,

'Mommy look at this house I built!' or 'I'm a doctor!' or 'I can count to 50 really fast!' or 'I painted the waffle tower!' you better stop dead in your tracks, turn from your random order of business and praise your child for being so amazing.

εμπνέω

the pen in the palm of my hand to inscribe the revelation of your plan.

-Lena...era 2010

I'm Sorry...

...I'm sorry I couldn't make you a better person, and I'm sorry I couldn't promote you to a new level of spiritual growth.

I failed.

But then again, I didn't. Spirit alignment isn't in my job description. That, my former friend, is entirely up to God.

I have, however, forgiven you.

Afraid to Fall.

I'm reading this book and it's supposed to give you some kind of guidance on your life. I suppose it works... But I only found that it does when you spend lots and lots of time figuring out how it applies. I'm kinda miffed that I can't just figure it all out when I read it the first time-or even the second time.

Dang it! Shouldn't I just have everything on demand?!?!

Oh wait. If I had everything on demand I would never realize that I am forever deprived of the essential tool to live. Trying to figure out what that is. Okay, we need food, and we need water, and I am pretty sure we need love.

Maybe in a different order. Need: Love-Water-Food.

Some can live without water for a day, and some without food. But imagine an entire day without love.

That would be enough to kill me forever.

I've come to find that if I want love I need to give, and to give fearlessly.

Oooh. Fearlessly. That's a dangerous word. Or is it? Sometimes I'm afraid to be fearless because pride will get in the way. Wait...AFRAID TO BE FEARLESS???

Oh my gosh. It's the truth though, isn't it. I just realized it's pride that gets in the way of living without fear. Step aside of yourself, Lena.

I just need to love. I just need to live, and I just need to stop this never ending cycle of pondering whether or not being fearless will work out.

It's like i'm sitting on a rock near a cliff wearing a flying squirrel suit and I know I'm gonna be fine it's just that I am so afraid to make the initial plunge into the freedom of falling for what I really want. Thank God for having such amazing people in my life to grab my hand, and drag me to the edge to simply say,

"What are you waiting for?"

What's in the Forest?

Well, it's kind of eerie. It's dark. You look around for a while. The air... its very-moist. The texture of the forest room is that of a rugged carpet... fluffy. No. Shaggy, like a wet dog. It's beautiful though, and you really have no idea where you are, all you know is that you feel...blissful. There is a counselor, mingling in the leaves as they dance around the forest floor. It smells of moss and wet earth. Completely untouched. Heaven. It's brand new and it's all yours, all yours to send through a vector to the physical dimension. This imagined dimension is mine to share, and yours to have, but only if you seek to find it. You believe, or so you say, but magic couldn't possibly be real... Or could it? Tell me. If you knew not a light in the world existed but to see the light would you know the difference when you saw the first light of a shadow?

I'm frustrated. Because I can't get this place out of my head and onto paper. It hurts. The portal of two completely opposite dimensions. My hands. My heart. The rhythm pulsates in my veins. Blue, ore is it red?

How to be Anxiety Free...

Well first thing is first, anxiety has everything to do with fear. And I had to have someone remind me of that just recently. It is so easy for me to run around like a chicken with it's head cut off, and well its basically ironic because it's like i've become a chicken. I'm afraid. I'm afraid of being late, or I'm afraid of messing up, or I'm just afraid of everything because the future is uncertain and I have no idea how to deal. So, my friend says to me with all assurance, "Perfect love casts out all fear!" And I'm thinking, well, yeah I know that.... but did I really know it? I don't think so because I stood face to face with a fearless man and it had me thirsting for the freedom he had. Freedom of all the stupid fear in the world. So then I realized... Perfect love... perfect love comes from the Father and if I have the Father's love then I shouldn't have any fear, because fear has to do with punishment, and God's not here to punish me... He is here to love, and to forgive, and to serve justice. That leads to say that all things are possible because with no fear you can do almost anything. ANYTHING. So much as become aligned with the source of everything.

In Alignment

With the purpose... with the meaning... with the source of all being real and alive and beautiful.

To be fearless. Flying with steel wings. "Perfect love casts out all fear. There is no fear in love! You see because fear has to do with punishment. If you have perfect love there is no condemnation. I'm running around in circles but it makes sense.

All my Inspiration

It comes from a source. That source which hides behind the facade of a human disposition. A face. What lies beneath the face and somewhere mettled to be connected to my brain. It is 100% connected and disconnected. I am wired to elapse time in the unconditional world of creation and pure immagination, and then within moments the entire landscape to be robbed, not to be discovered again for years. I have re-acquainted myself with who I was and who I wished to be and what I loved as the most pure and unadulterated child that I was. So sad to say that I lost myself for 2 whole years, and it took 10 to gather myself back to my origin, and so I live my life I suppose a few years behind schedule. Alas, I managed to access a new level of sixth sense configuration. Thinking about it grants me the oportunity to explore endless boundaries of creative exploration. I hope to take you on a journey... that is if you so wish to join me. It's a journey back to the memory relapse of pain and suffering, but with a lineage to meaningful revelation in transcribing my life to paint a picture...of which will shatter lines of injustice and social confusion.

(Thank you d-b-c for your beautiful art! http://d-b-c.deviantart.com/art/IMAGINATION-116208324)