Nobody Knows Me...

...like you do.

Not my mom, not my dad, not my sisters, brothers, future husband or best friend. 

Compared to how you know my every move, emotional break and confusing outbreak of distress, all the other's in their human effort can't even keep up. Not only do you have the capacity to keep up with my ocean of catharsis, you have the capacity and willingness to listen and give attention to my every act and reaction. 

It's taken many days and several nights of confusion, discovery, and mostly meditation with a cleanse of clear stillness to bring my heart in captivity to the presence of your foremost being. By the blessing of encouragement truth and discernment through the life of my likeminded brothers and sisters in the faith, I am confident in your voice... prompting me to move, and as I do... your voice echoes in the pattern of my life in every dimension. Whether I can see or hear or not, I know more than every human sense perception that your voice is more clear and more comforting than any human embrace. 

Allow not any blindfold I set in place hide away your good grace and mercy in my longing for purity and seeking you before anything else or anyone for that matter.

Definition

Sometimes...no. ALL the time. I want to recover the database of my individuality all over again, to just clear out all the garbage. Set into time and space... who am I? What do I want? Who is it I am striving to be? I need to fill in the blanks of my autobiography, and discover marks i've made that define who I am.

For example: My name is Lena. Middle name Frances. Last name Hardesty.

I love the color purple. I love teal. I also love orange, and when I am feeling moody I can't stand colors at all.

My favorite food is something new, so that's why I have trouble picking out a place to eat. (Note to future husband... "You pick the restaurant.") I can't eat based on what I crave but what I need for my body, or so I think.

I will gladly take notes from a doctor, but I read the fine print on every prescription label. If the side effects are strikingly worse than my current symptoms, well, I'll take the more estranged route of solving problems. Fixing the problems, not creating more.

Problem is, people don't seem to expressively host any problems in life, so I guess I'm the oddball of problems in this town. Yet facebook would share the contrary.

Transparency is my everyday filter of complications and unexpected life experience. My creative coop in basic observation of life around me is the balance. Observe, listen, be true, and never fear opposition. It's in the face of breakthrough. What define's me? Only the meaning of life will decide.

Seeking Perfection.

If one goes about life demanding perfection from the nouns of this world, the prospected personal outcome should be an expectation of failure and sincere disappointment. Never an absolution for the endless bondage of humanity.

Seek the nouns not of this world, but of the Kingdom of God and His righteousness. It will be then that everything else will add unto you. To the likeness of your being, live in fear and wonder of the source and form that gives. Be curious of the gravity keeping all things in tact. Embrace the invisible, and yet very evident God who creates, and gives freedom to both create and destroy.

Make a choice to chose the pathway of destruction or creation. Free will is a powerful adversary to the future of our God-like DNA. Trace your steps back to childhood, and the wonder of your imagination. Be brave, be quite like a child, and never underestimate the gravity of the small voice inside.

Take time to be awake. Take time to rest, and take time to close your eyes on a world to open them to another. Gather your thoughts, place them in a vessel and transport to the specific name of your Creator.

Be careful of speaking into the wilderness and universe can seem to behold "positivity," to understand that positive energy does not attract positive energy, but negative. Gravity establishes a grounding for chaos in the universe.

Study the gravity of your life. What are the invisible roots that do or do not tie you to the ground of your being?

Lights Camera Action for Life

Original Art By Lena Frances

The learning process of life is like making a film. First There is vision. Then there is light, then camera, and finally action. Sometimes I can imagine the order leading as follows. Action, Camera, Light. Just start recording, the action will follow, or create itself, and then the light will shine through on your ideas. Crazy thought when initially everything has a format. I'm not so sure about that anymore. Even with story telling I don't really tend to think linear. My stories are up and down, into the past and back to the future for understanding of the present. It's quite interesting. I've journaled ideas and visions for the past year about a film concept that came to me in various abstractions. I have a hybrid brain. I think on my left and right. My perceptions are wild, and sometimes very mysterious and I always have questions about my sanity, but God keeps me in line with what he knows is right. King David and I would have been great pals. Me making movies, and he the musical composer.

How to Save Money Ingeniously

Ingenious Discovery with my finances:

Don't have just one banking account.

Don't just have 2 bank accounts.

Have 3 Bank accounts!!!!

The first is for savings.

The second is for bills.

The last and third account is for spending!

With three accounts there is less traffic of transfer with funds from one place to the next. The key is also to have bank accounts at 2 different banks. I've personally made it difficult to transfer saved money to spending or bills account.

There is more distinction of plans to manage my money.

I've tried to save money for forever and having two bank accounts has just been an icky trap.

Transferring from one account to the other and back left me with no savings and hardly any bill paying funds.

Since i've added a "bills account," I can always depend on the appropriate amount of money being available... because I put it there intentionally. Thus I know how much money I am going to save after, and also what I have left to spend.

Let me tell you, Genius!!! I have currently banked 3 times as much money as I have in the recent past... Talk about storehouse!!!

Hope this has been a great tip!

~Lena

Faith - Action = Nothingness

There are plenty of people in this world who have ideas, thoughts, plans, visions, etc. Plenty of those individuals spend countless hours vocalizing their brilliant and original plans to become something more than struggling to pay the bills and pay the rent. Few and far between are the numbers of a whole pile of people that actually do something with their ingenious discoveries.

I hope that I would be one of the few that do just the very thing most forget to ignite for the fire of fate and destiny . I pray and wish on every shooting star I see that I am going down the right path. This path I have chosen by guidance of eternal light is the way i shall learn to apply the specific action necessary to support my faith.

Faith without action is dead. And what is dead? Nothingness, the end, a place of solitude and isolation for the returning of one's being to the dust. From there we came and to there we shall return. Death is a strange thing. It must be faced at one point or another in life.

My dog recently died. She'd been around since childhood. Cocoa. "Brownie Scout," as I would call her. Visiting her burial site for the first time was an interesting experience. The very first visit to a site of burial. I'd seen people talk to their grandparents

and friends in movies, but I sat there and talked to my "Brownie Scout." I could swear to you that her spirit was right there with me, and she was happy to have such a beautiful place of rest. She would protect the land forever. Not only that, but she and her spirit would protect me as well, wherever I am.

It certainly takes some dose of faith to believe that death is a part of life. It's the beginning for the end of beginning.

I have faith. It's no doubt about that. There is absolute evidence: a supernatural plot is in order for my future. According to the amount of opposition by means of awkward and frustrating detours, malicious decoys, and heavy attempts to impose temptation, I can discern that my greatest enemy is on a path to sneak in through the cracks. At my weakest point, I am surrounded.

But not so fast. At the trudging times of questioning, how this, how that, why this why that, I have to take a break from the rhetorically bland pattern of conscious ponder, and shake my own life up a bit by doing the one thing that is most hard for me, an A.D.D. brain, to do...

BE STILL.

Ugh, I hate it. Being still is positively the one thing everything in the world tries to offend. We must always be doing SOMETHING AT ALL TIMES, right??? Maybe? Maybe...not.

I try, try to just be still for a minute and just breathe. Let me tell you it works. I discovered a new breathing technique of my own and it feels as if I am transferring the very life I live to the outer parts of my body that lack enough oxygen to function.

I graze the surface of understanding in this current trial of temptation. It's silly, really. I could have just said "Okay" to the random guy talking to me through the window while I'm at the Chick-Fil-A drive through. All he wanted was to sit and eat. But that is not what he really wanted.

Thank God for the famous words...

Let me tell you. Those are the famous last words I will have for the enemy. What I really am doing in life is working in this dress rehearsal for eternity. And I am definitely not going to be running around reckless just because I want to have a "good time" here and now. Here and now is the foreshadowing result of a period in time.

Now to figure out just a glimpse of the action to take. There are many pathways of dedication, choices, and even different environments of time and energy to disperse.

I know it is tiresome to disperse time and energy, so I am working towards the laser-beam of focused action.. so to speak.

I live by a simple yet humbling saying....

"Trust in not your own understanding but in the hands of the heart keeper so that in all your ways there will be an entrusted life will. In that direct order your path shall be well illuminated and gifted with a mystic guide for your life of labyrinth love."

Never underestimate the power of asking. Those who never ask for help, never get any. May there be belief to have faith and conscious relief.

2012 Begins.

And I must say....

False prophets are nothin' but a feel-good-for-a-second victory leading to a hearty jump off your rocker that just so happens to be right next to the edge of a non-cultivated gorge... so just incase you have ever felt so good and then felt like death as a strange side-effect of an environmental factor you may want to think twice about what influences your life... #discernment1