I'm extremely enamored by the strength of God who resides in your life. Why else would I have such a strong inclination to grow in the Spirit at such a strong rate-and in such a short period of time? It's insane. I go to my hideaway and dive straight into the light of God's word. I'm sick of the dark shadows I've been hiding in. Every moment of every day seeking to know God at a deeper, more intimate level. I love the God in your heart, and that might just make your soul the other side of mine. So I'm looking to the other side of the waterfall. Still can't make out a clear depiction of the face, but the vision is breathtaking.
So for now I'm going to dream and submit them like a recently rendered demo reel. Time to seek greater strength that God has been telling me I deserve.
Part of me thinks... I need to be prettier, smarter, wittier.
No, that's not it at all. In fact, those longings are lies.
For truth, I just want to Know God. I just want to have him as my:
Provider
Protector
Security
Identity
Tranquility
Refuge.
And I want to know so badly, "Lord, what did David mean to say by telling God that He was a 'fortress' and 'stronghold'?"
I just want to figure out, because recently I just want to run to somebody's warm embrace.
If I really wanted that I could get it easily...but I know that's not what God wills.
He wills that I would seek his Presence for all.
It's hard to say that "GOD IS ALL I NEED." It is, I'm not going to lie.
I think, well what about my desires? As my mom always said, God knows the desires of your heart...
I know that. I'm learning to understand it.
My heart wants love to be real in the most un-sensible way, ever.
So Lord, take it away.
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